I don't want this to hold me back anymore. It's so frustrating.
I remind myself again and again, this is 2011, not 2010. But to no help this reminder serves.
Detest and disgust; that's what I feel.
I keep swearing in my mind whenever it pops up. How possibly low can I stoop to. Maybe, I've never really let go from the start of 2011. Please let this be gotten rid of, its a big stumbling block. I fall so hard everytime I face it.
Meanwhile, on the lighter side of things. I can't stand my flat nose! During practical, the stupid goggles kept sliding down my oriental nose. I hope they design a goggles custom made for our Asian noses soon. Ha ha ha.
6:08 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
72 minutes at haji lane.
long overdued photos from haji lane
(photos not in order)
5:51 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
im blogging from a macbook which is certainly awesome(:
Saturday was very fun indeed. Family gathering was at my house. Almost everyone was there. Pot Luck so there was sushi, the CHICKEN WINGS, the fish, the wantons, and the oh-so-brilliant tomyam soup! I made a cheesecake with yingxuan! Bob made a video of all of us. He just had to choose that sad sad song and make the gugus' cry! Gosh. blablabla
Extract from yilin chia's blog!
My monkey cousins xuannie and bea imitated the way everyone cried at the funeral and it was DAMN BLOODY FUNNY. Cracked everyone up and I laughed till I spilled the bowl of tom yum on my white shirt! Played charades with the senior citizens(lol) after that. It was chicken feet for them cos the answers were all titles of oldies! Really enjoyed myself today and I'm sure everybody else did too! Our next gathering would be at ECP on 1 August, Saturday. Cross out that day, my dear cousins! :)
Us mimicking how the aunties and uncle cried.
Dancing to the cha chan bo song with our beloved amah look-a-like(:
AND MY FAVOURITE PICTURE OF THE DAY.
//
Out of the darkness and into the sun
The Adventures Of AhGong's Funeral .
Ohkay! Everything is over so its back to
So-
Happy-
I'm-
Not-
Doing-
Anything Mood again:D
My sleeping clock is still terribly screwed due to the nights of staying up and the daytime ridiculous napping.
DAY 1.Nothing much and I didn't think of taking pictures. The prayer was short so that was good. Came back at night blahblahblah, yingxuan was here. I blogged on her blog, she blogged on mine.Web cam with her friend up till 3.
DAY 2.Most of the flowers came today. We started our NTUC Toilet Programme. Woo! I still miss it even though it was disgusting and stinky.
OH. this is awesome. Its this really long piece of cloth that almost our whole family helped to put up. (some of the people helping out were pretty useless like me! so we took pictures)
[Left]Is that bombastic or what?! My brave brave uncles! WOO! Risking their lives(exaggerating!) just for that long towel. [Right] My dad taking solo shot:D
MY LAOBU!
The cheapest way to make a baby happy. only 20cents(:
//
Out of the darkness and into the sun
This is yingxuan here blogging on behalf of beatrice.
Her mum woke her up at 7.20am this morning and at that point she was kind of pissed. Her mum spoke softly to aunty Yali that ahgong had just passed away early this morning. She immediately woke up and felt quite sad but of course you know beatrice is a STRONG GIRL(shuddup i am ok!-beatrice). She was stunned at that moment and then she woke the rest up after that. She then bathed, bob and vanes pick them up. At the moment that she reached, she felt as if everything was numb. The people, the things she touched, the emotions inside her.
Its 12.44pm now, i think we should go to bed soon.
Tomorrow will be a long day ahead for us.
God bless you ahgong.
I'll hang onto the memories I have of you. Forever.
9:31 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
The Day We All Bought Assessments.
Six random things i did and will do.1.Got high on milk and sponge cake.
2.Played UNO until almost everyone who played it went mad.
3.Crash my neighbour's house to watch teevee tomorrow if my parents irritate me about the importance of chinese revision again.
4.Bought a barbie movie for my sister called thumbelina.{oh im so nice(:}
5.Learnt how to say shit in a nicer hokkien way rather than the usual
'Pang Sai'6. Bought a yellow file with a blue reptile print and pink file with an alligator:D
I improved on my ranking:D but like suck giraffes at chinese. Had PTC today. The teacher indirectly told me i was:
-Immature {"Don't worry, as she matures so will her answers."}
-Making no sense even though we told you so
{"We taught them how to answer the questions but Alot of them couldn't follow the format. All she needs to do is link."}
-Chatty
{My CFT muttered "..and very talkative..." under her breath}
-I should not take Pure lit.
{"You could take Pure Geography or Pure History or blahblahblah. But if you do still choose lit under such circumstances. Lit would still be given to you."}
In a very nice way. what? oh my parents bought assesement books after PTC. So did ariel's and sonia.
8:08 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
you imbecile.
today was the slack-est day in class.
We had only two lessons, I'm not sure if Lit is even counted?
I think my brain is failing.(Gosh. What to do? I have the crap papers tomorro>Geog and Science)
6 Things I did today that shows My Brain Is Failing
number one:
I wasted 3 days studying on the wrong subject. I studied Lit and Math when I should have been studying Geog and Science.
number two:
I took the lift down, walked all the to Sonia's house about to sms her then remembered today got exam and I forgot to take my oh-so-lovely chicken essence(: Rushed back up, and realise today don't have exams. I walked for nothing.
number three:
I didn't bring back my DnT wood for the second time and had to do last minute painting.
number four:
I forgot today had bake rice so i bought a waffle thinking it was Monday.
number 5:
I dropped my wallet which is like the super fat kind!(bought that so i won't lose it but i lost it like 8029834699o52306 times ready. heng I'm like really god blessed:D ) on the grass patch at the back gate. Thank you so much Mrs..Veegii?? for picking it up for picking it up!
number six:
When Mrs Veegii picked up my wallet(it blended in with the grass. awesome(: right?) I looked a bit further then I saw a familiar elmo phone strap. Checked my phone and realise it was mine. How in the mangali did I not see it? She picked my handphone strap for me too! Such a nice person.
After School Cammie Sessions:
Some random girl's hand spoiled the picture:D
Awkward Position.
R.I.A [Retards.In.Action]
How to fail acting lady-like.
How to Un-Glam in the most awkward position(Beatrice)
Step Lian(Ariel)
Our oh-so-Fabulous Jumpshot:D
Bombastic Dancing:
.End.
1:16 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
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I don't want this to hold me back anymore. It's so frustrating.
I remind myself again and again, this is 2011, not 2010. But to no help this reminder serves.
Detest and disgust; that's what I feel.
I keep swearing in my mind whenever it pops up. How possibly low can I stoop to. Maybe, I've never really let go from the start of 2011. Please let this be gotten rid of, its a big stumbling block. I fall so hard everytime I face it.
Meanwhile, on the lighter side of things. I can't stand my flat nose! During practical, the stupid goggles kept sliding down my oriental nose. I hope they design a goggles custom made for our Asian noses soon. Ha ha ha.
6:08 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
72 minutes at haji lane.
long overdued photos from haji lane
(photos not in order)
5:51 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
im blogging from a macbook which is certainly awesome(:
Saturday was very fun indeed. Family gathering was at my house. Almost everyone was there. Pot Luck so there was sushi, the CHICKEN WINGS, the fish, the wantons, and the oh-so-brilliant tomyam soup! I made a cheesecake with yingxuan! Bob made a video of all of us. He just had to choose that sad sad song and make the gugus' cry! Gosh. blablabla
Extract from yilin chia's blog!
My monkey cousins xuannie and bea imitated the way everyone cried at the funeral and it was DAMN BLOODY FUNNY. Cracked everyone up and I laughed till I spilled the bowl of tom yum on my white shirt! Played charades with the senior citizens(lol) after that. It was chicken feet for them cos the answers were all titles of oldies! Really enjoyed myself today and I'm sure everybody else did too! Our next gathering would be at ECP on 1 August, Saturday. Cross out that day, my dear cousins! :)
Us mimicking how the aunties and uncle cried.
Dancing to the cha chan bo song with our beloved amah look-a-like(:
AND MY FAVOURITE PICTURE OF THE DAY.
//
Out of the darkness and into the sun
The Adventures Of AhGong's Funeral .
Ohkay! Everything is over so its back to
So-
Happy-
I'm-
Not-
Doing-
Anything Mood again:D
My sleeping clock is still terribly screwed due to the nights of staying up and the daytime ridiculous napping.
DAY 1.Nothing much and I didn't think of taking pictures. The prayer was short so that was good. Came back at night blahblahblah, yingxuan was here. I blogged on her blog, she blogged on mine.Web cam with her friend up till 3.
DAY 2.Most of the flowers came today. We started our NTUC Toilet Programme. Woo! I still miss it even though it was disgusting and stinky.
OH. this is awesome. Its this really long piece of cloth that almost our whole family helped to put up. (some of the people helping out were pretty useless like me! so we took pictures)
[Left]Is that bombastic or what?! My brave brave uncles! WOO! Risking their lives(exaggerating!) just for that long towel. [Right] My dad taking solo shot:D
MY LAOBU!
The cheapest way to make a baby happy. only 20cents(:
//
Out of the darkness and into the sun
This is yingxuan here blogging on behalf of beatrice.
Her mum woke her up at 7.20am this morning and at that point she was kind of pissed. Her mum spoke softly to aunty Yali that ahgong had just passed away early this morning. She immediately woke up and felt quite sad but of course you know beatrice is a STRONG GIRL(shuddup i am ok!-beatrice). She was stunned at that moment and then she woke the rest up after that. She then bathed, bob and vanes pick them up. At the moment that she reached, she felt as if everything was numb. The people, the things she touched, the emotions inside her.
Its 12.44pm now, i think we should go to bed soon.
Tomorrow will be a long day ahead for us.
God bless you ahgong.
I'll hang onto the memories I have of you. Forever.
9:31 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
The Day We All Bought Assessments.
Six random things i did and will do.1.Got high on milk and sponge cake.
2.Played UNO until almost everyone who played it went mad.
3.Crash my neighbour's house to watch teevee tomorrow if my parents irritate me about the importance of chinese revision again.
4.Bought a barbie movie for my sister called thumbelina.{oh im so nice(:}
5.Learnt how to say shit in a nicer hokkien way rather than the usual
'Pang Sai'6. Bought a yellow file with a blue reptile print and pink file with an alligator:D
I improved on my ranking:D but like suck giraffes at chinese. Had PTC today. The teacher indirectly told me i was:
-Immature {"Don't worry, as she matures so will her answers."}
-Making no sense even though we told you so
{"We taught them how to answer the questions but Alot of them couldn't follow the format. All she needs to do is link."}
-Chatty
{My CFT muttered "..and very talkative..." under her breath}
-I should not take Pure lit.
{"You could take Pure Geography or Pure History or blahblahblah. But if you do still choose lit under such circumstances. Lit would still be given to you."}
In a very nice way. what? oh my parents bought assesement books after PTC. So did ariel's and sonia.
8:08 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
you imbecile.
today was the slack-est day in class.
We had only two lessons, I'm not sure if Lit is even counted?
I think my brain is failing.(Gosh. What to do? I have the crap papers tomorro>Geog and Science)
6 Things I did today that shows My Brain Is Failing
number one:
I wasted 3 days studying on the wrong subject. I studied Lit and Math when I should have been studying Geog and Science.
number two:
I took the lift down, walked all the to Sonia's house about to sms her then remembered today got exam and I forgot to take my oh-so-lovely chicken essence(: Rushed back up, and realise today don't have exams. I walked for nothing.
number three:
I didn't bring back my DnT wood for the second time and had to do last minute painting.
number four:
I forgot today had bake rice so i bought a waffle thinking it was Monday.
number 5:
I dropped my wallet which is like the super fat kind!(bought that so i won't lose it but i lost it like 8029834699o52306 times ready. heng I'm like really god blessed:D ) on the grass patch at the back gate. Thank you so much Mrs..Veegii?? for picking it up for picking it up!
number six:
When Mrs Veegii picked up my wallet(it blended in with the grass. awesome(: right?) I looked a bit further then I saw a familiar elmo phone strap. Checked my phone and realise it was mine. How in the mangali did I not see it? She picked my handphone strap for me too! Such a nice person.
After School Cammie Sessions:
Some random girl's hand spoiled the picture:D
Awkward Position.
R.I.A [Retards.In.Action]
How to fail acting lady-like.
How to Un-Glam in the most awkward position(Beatrice)
Step Lian(Ariel)
Our oh-so-Fabulous Jumpshot:D
Bombastic Dancing:
.End.
1:16 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
